Words are racing
Through my mind
Swirling whirling
Trying to find
A blank paper
Canvas to paint
Feelings and wisdom
All too faint
Fear taking over
Breaking me down
Mind over body
Make no sound
A thousand thoughts
In my eyes
Seek the truth
Through the lies
I’m lost again
As you know
Count each day
Until I go
I know, you’re busy
With her by your side
No thoughts of me
Kills me inside
I want you here
Selfish, I know
You’re hers for now
She is my foe
Holding in the tears
As you mention her name
I know, it’s your life
Hurts all the same
I need you with me
You say you will go
Can’t do this much longer
You love me, I know
My friends
If you could see me now
You would not know
Not recognise me
From long ago
Bags under my eyes
Not from a great night out
Tossing and turning
The waking in the dreams
Tears roll down my cheek
From untold pains
Not the laughter you know me for
Til I can’t hold them in
The innuendos I once whispered
Into your ears cheekily
They are no more
Whispers of self doubt
The echoing giggles
Now only in my mind
Laughing at failure
Not joyous times
Friends, if you could see
What has happened
The truth behind
The broken smiles
Would you still be here for me?
Painted cheeks
Pained eyes
Hiding emotion
In disguise
Watches world
Passing by
Glass cabinets
Quietly lie
Delicate china
Craving touch
Weary smiles
Breaking much
Hidden beauty
Never glanced
On display
Shallow enhanced
Cracks show
Pale thin
Soon spotted
Into bin
When I was little I used to love visiting my nanas house. We would play card games, run around the garden and she would let us play a beehive game on her sky!
But most of all, she collected things. Fridge magnets, tea towels, glass balls, and most importantly, a doll from every country she visited. They would sit proudly in her glass cabinet, I feel like one of these dolls.
When I was 18, I went to the desert museum in Arizona. It is amazing there. It’s more of a zoo than a museum, don’t be put off by the name. If you haven’t been, I insist you go.
Whilst there, I loved the humming bird sanctuary. Tiny little petite beautiful birds.
I bought a humming bird necklace. I wear it most of the time. It reminds me that it’s the small things in life that are the most beautiful, and to be set free and fly away.
I don’t know what to do or say
I cannot control this
Not anyway
I fear I’m falling back again
To a dark place
Where I will sin
The walls are closing all around
I cannot feel my feet
Upon ground
The silent tears in my eyes
Confusion around
Lost my guide
Beautiful birds will flutter by
Humming quiet song
Sweet lullaby
In their tune I hear them call
Be strong
Do not fall
Spread my wings one at a time
Shed the dust off
Soul inside
Shall take time I do fear
Even though
End is near
The distance between us is all the same
Yet you seem further from I than you
You push and push but I won’t break
I will not make that same mistake
I stand strong upon my ground
Pushing back to make my stance
You do not like this new uncertainty
Nothing left so you can’t hurt me
War paint smiles across my face
Your game I no longer wish to play
All we’ve caused is aching hearts
Both knowing we’d be better apart
I made my point and told you straight
You bent the rules once again
I’m going to let you win the fight
No arguing now I can sleep at night
I looked him in the eyes,
Those deep blue pools
He stared back
Desire showing
Wanting my touch
My breath echoed
Across his skin
Delicately placing kisses
As I glided lower
Trailing my tongue
The anticipation showed
As he knew my destination
His eager cock hard
Waiting impatiently
Teased on edge
My lips wrapped around
The throbbing head
He moaned in relief
As it went in further
Stopped by him
I kissed back up his body
Harder than before
I hovered my soaked pussy
Above his gleaming cock
Tip in just
He felt my warm juices
Enticing him in
I stared at him again
As I leaned forwards
Breasts on show
He took my nipples
Teased them in his mouth
I kissed his neck and smiled
‘Put a condom on and fuck me properly’
Hastily in me
The skilled Foster Drake has inspired me to write a poem. It shall never live up to the standards of his, just peak through in his shadow.
Cuff me up
Chain me down
My tortured lips
Will make no sound
You strike me once
But not enough
I beg of you harder
Of that you must
My pert pink bottom
Forlorn in the air
As you punish it further
Painful as you dare
I look back
Catch the glint in your eye
You blindfold me
So I can’t spy
Throw me down
On the bed I thud
You have all control
Like a real man should
You push my boundaries
All my buttons as well
I feel you deep
As you start to swell
I let out a moan
Pleasure or pain
You don’t care
As you just came
My hair tousled
I peel back the mask
To reveal laid by a mirror
Do we look good, I ask
My mind is confused. Lost you would say.
It’s not as clear as a summers day
There’s a bitter breeze thats flowing by
Making me question to live or to die.
A silly question, of course, I know
Only deers give life, so the story does go
This would just be a life gone to waste
For now there’s nothing, no reason to haste.
A thought lingering at the back of my mind
Desperate soul on a search to find
What I seek, I have no clue
What will stop me feeling so blue?
A cuddle and love is not quite enough
Is it true, or shall I call your bluff?
I need to look further, deep inside
Find my voice, tell it not to hide
I know I think, what I need to do
Now I just need to see it though
Be strong myself, have no fear
If only I were to adhere
To be a Mistress.
It sounds quite seductive really, don’t you think?
I mean that’s what it is right, seducing someone elses husband?
Luring him into your charm, under your spell
You’d imagine your Mistress to be flawless. Perfect.
Sexy.
To cater to your every need and desire
Admire your presence, and dwell
Massage your body, your ego too
Be amazing between your legs
And a devil under the sheets
Beauty radiating
The secret, never to tell
You see them on the news, press surrounding all
The shame they were found out
Now to make the cash
With her story to sell
The reality is different
Not at all like it seems, not like on the television
Heartache and confusion rule the relationship
Never knowing if he’ll really leave
That’s the living hell
On edge at every noise, listening as your phone beeps
A long awaited message from your lover
‘We can be together soon’
The emotions in the affair
Leave you a broken shell
For now, stick to the fun
Try to forget the rest
Enjoy the dinner and champagne
For you never know when you’ll kiss farewell
It’s never as simple as it seems
Tears and broken dreams
