January 12

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January hasn’t exactly been the best start to the year. Okay, that’s a slight understatement.

New Year

Yes. I made it into 2012. That’s quite an achievement. I didn’t die for all 365 days in 2011. This years a bit tricker. 366 days to survive.
I spent the New Year alone in my room, in my party dress. Not quite the start I wanted.

Drag
First time in a gay bar, I loved it! Who wouldn’t want to spend their evening having banter with a drag queen?

Anxiety
It returned. And misery loves company, so it brought something else with it, something much worse.

Contraception
I screwed it up as usual, but on the plus side, I went to the Dr’s. So I now have a Dr’s. Which was useful for when I got cystitis. Not so useful to not have the results from 6 days ago… *runs to the bathroom*. What’s the benefit of these Dr’s again?

Rock
I hit rock bottom. I couldn’t cope. And I lost everything.

Resolutions
Pretty sure I broke most of these, and the chinese ones too

I just managed to scrape one little thing back though. And you’re not going to like it.

February is going to be a better month. I will make sure of that.

Chinese New Year

It’s a New Year today. Where’s the fireworks?!

I love the person that told me when I mess up new year, there’s always chinese new year.

So here I am.

I admit it.

I messed up.

I never wanted to be in that situation. And as soon as I found out what he honestly had being telling her, we split. There is no excuse to have told his wife that if he was planning a divorce. I never wanted to be ‘the other woman’.

So, New Years Resolutions!

*No dating married men
*No one night stands [easier said than done!]
*No sex on the first date
*No getting back with ex’s

I’m sure this list will grow as I make more mistakes. And I’m sure there will be a lot of them I will make.

Oh, and my blog of course needs redoing ;)

2012; New Year, New Mind

I hate new years resolutions. I can never think of anything good, or stick to it.

I wrote a post the other day, published it, looked at it again and deleted. I would never be able to stick to the things.

I asked Mr Married Man for some advice. He gave me these:

1. Stop taking contraption
2. Have sex more than once in a day with my boyfriend
3. Get pregnant asap

1. Not until May.
2. How dare I only have sex with him once when I last saw him? Possible for the first time it hasn’t been more than that.
3. Not until May.

So shall ignore his suggestions.

I wanted something that would change my outlook, rather than physical changes.

So far I have these…

*Don’t be pressured into things
*Do what makes me happy
*Don’t worry so much
*Be myself
*Smile

I shall try my best to stick to these, and perhaps add a few more along the way.

What are your New Years Resolutions? And do you think you’ll be able to stick to them?

Inspired by Mrs Slummy Mummys Anti-Resolution

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